The Suicide Note
Is this our fault?
I think that we can each take our own opinions away from this suicide note; however my thoughts on it are that this is our fault for creating a society where failure is not an option. We are being told that we cannot even stumble.
We are being forced to achieve success, get propped up, or disappear completely. Failure is not to be tolerated. There is no learning from mistakes. If you manage to make a mistake and you’re not perceived to be ”good” or “important” enough to be propped up by somebody or something else, you’re given the impression that there is no other option.
Is this really what we want? Is this the world we really want to live in?
How can we ever learn to be strong if we aren’t allowed to stumble once in a while?
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am an asshole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am not good enough for her.
I have come to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I’m always brokeand I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that’s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of fucking up everything. I am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I hope that my parents know that I fucked up not them. It is my fault I screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who’ve hurt me, but I have not and cannot come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and the things I’ve done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another, especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did, that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone reads this they will know it’s me, “Can’t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying”
For more insightful commentary, see Glenn Beck’s take on it.
Mayan Civilization not green enough to survive
Al Gore is now telling us that climate change caused the fall of the Mayan civilization…
As he says:
As we move towards solving the climate crisis, we need to remember the consequences to civilizations that refused to take environmental concerns seriously.
WTF? Were there a lot of carbon emitters during the Mayan period? Should they have done a better job of controlling their greenhouse gas emissions? Would we still have a great Mayan civilization if they had just implemented cap and trade like they should have?
Come on! I’m not sure why anybody takes this joker seriously any longer, but he is so far off the deep end of reality that I’m not even sure that he believes the things that come out of his own mouth.
Another Chicken/Egg paradox?
I continue to turn my nose up at the way researchers and so-called “experts” present definitive answers to the great quandary of which came first. After all, how do they know?
They don’t. No matter how they look at it, the only way to draw an answer to the question is to look at it subjectively and – even if sub-consciously – draw a conclusion based on what you want to see.
So how can these folks make the claim that TV influences teen behavior when it cannot be said with any sort of confidence that teen behavior doesn’t influence what they watch? According to behavioral scientists who have done “groundbreaking” research on the topic, teens who watch sexy TV are more likely to get pregnant…
Really? So I guess nobody else has considered that perhaps teens who are likely to engage in risky sexual behavior are also more likely to also watch sexy TV shows? Well, if that’s the case then let me be the first! This is the classic chicken and the egg paradox. After all, how can these hunyucks definitevly claim that the egg came before the chicken? Does TV watching influence behavior or does behavior influence TV watching?
It angers me that, in this modern era, we’re more ass backwards than ever! Are we still such prudes in 2008 that we are not only interested in knowing why teens do the horizantal Bach, but are also willing to point our fingers at “naughty” things as being bad influences? This is what I mean by subjective analyses of research issues. If we looked at this study objectively, we could only associate sexy TV and permiscuous behavior… But since these so-called “scientists” can’t break away from popular opinion long enough to make such an objective statement, we’re stuck with the subjective opinion that “Sexy TV shows are bad because they make teens go out and get knocked up.”
Sounds pretty silly, doesn’t it?
So which is it? The chicken or the egg?
Update:
As a special 2-fer today, CNN was kind enough to post an article about how violent video games make kids agressive… Really? Haven’t we been going through this nonsense since DOOM came out over a decade ago? Who funds this sort of idiocy? I mean, seriously… Once more… Chicken. Egg. Any questions?
